I guess I’m starting to understand what people mean by white knuckling it. Before I never thought it applied because I work a spiritual program of recovery. I have coins and everything!
Without going into details that frankly bore and confuse me, we occasionally sell some stuff on amazon and I’m dealing with a douchey buyer. It happens. I know this already. What I didn’t know – had no freaking clue – was that I had an apple cart and it’s been upset because that’s what happens to apple carts.
Maybe people shouldn’t have apple carts? You push it over a big enough bump and those apples are coming down in a terrible avalanche no matter how excellently you engineer fruit pyramids. But what about the small bumps… the tiny pebbles in the road, really? I think I have too many small stressors going on right now. Most of them are really good, but stress is stress, I guess.
Like I said, I didn’t even know I had an apple cart until recently. Before I shrugged the little stuff off because I didn’t care about it. This part is good, this caring thing.
I still don’t know if any of my apples are salvageable because douchey buyers are terrible about responding to email. Thinking about apple carts has made me feel better. I still say there’s got to be a better way to transport apples, but it is kind of funny in that moment after the terrible avalanche and all the rolling stops and you think, wait, these are just apples.
update: I feel bad calling him douchey because he got back to me and those apples are barely bruised. I can probably still make a pie out of them.